I Feel Like A Falling Star

”I feel like a falling star,” I say and you give me that look.
It is that look that tears my heart to pieces.
It is that look that makes my knees go weak.
I know you are only listening to placate me.
I know my musings in the dark amuse you.
I watch as people drift away returning to their homes and
I watch as you watch me.
“I feel like a falling star,” I say again and look up into the sky.
“And I’ve finally fallen into place next to another in a lovely constellation.
Where we will sparkle in the heavens for eternity.”
I watch as you watch me give you that look.
I watch as that look tears your heart to pieces.
I know it’s that look that makes your knees go weak.
I know you are listening to every word I say now.
“I have waited years for a falling star,” You say and look into my eyes.
“And I’ve finally found you, sitting next to me, my lovely constellation.
Where we will sparkle in the heavens for eternity.”
We watch as people drift away, returning to their homes and
As the Ferris wheel ride comes to a stop and the magic fades
We to return to our homes, knowing that
You only listen to my musings to placate me

Where Mine Once Met

Before me
A picture of you
Forever frozen
In black and White.
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Downcast eyes
Hide the heartbroken
Secrets of your soul.
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Half of a smile
Rests on the lips
Where mine once met.
But never again.

When Did Your Heart Go Missing?

This pulsing organ
Below my neck screams
From the havoc you have brought
Upon it.

It’s cry, like a rainstorm,
Attacks my every sense,
Howling like the wind,
Beating against the windows of my soul
Until I can only taste the
Metallic copper of insidious lies
Until I can only see the
Mere shadow of what was once
life, love, and beauty
Until it is all I hear

And yet you go about
Day to day
Smiling that smile that
Masks the villainous monster.
Throw around words meant
To ensnare and hypnotize
And yet you take no notice
Of the incessant pleas
Sounding all through the night
Betraying my broken heart of hearts

Because in order to feel another’s heart
You must have one of your own.

She & I

She looked up into the dark and empty sky.
All that she felt was guarded by her eyes.
She walked among the living, yet separate from their lives.
She wasn’t one of them. She had too many secrets, too many lies.
She would love to be a painting, silently adored.
Instead she was a shadow, loudly ignored.
She went along seemingly serene in every way.
Instead, she was burning from the things she’ll never say.
She didn’t care that what was left of her heart threatened to succumb to her woes.
Instead, she stared at the thorns, oblivious to the rose.
She looked into the mirror and saw the reflection,
Of a girl who’d been thrown away, had lost the connection.
Then and there, her fortress of withheld emotions began to collapse.
She picked herself up, if she didn’t, she would immediately relapse.
I looked up into the vast and laden sky,
All I felt inside was reflected in my eyes.

Can't Make It On My Own

I can’t make it on my own.
My heart is in too many pieces.
I will wait for you,
But I can’t wait forever.
Right now,
If I were drowning
I doubt,
I would even kick to the surface.
I can’t make it on my own.
My life is running out too quickly.
I’ll wait for you,
But I won’t wait forever.
Waiting Patiently
For the next time I may see your face.
But, only in my dreams,
Are you aware of me standing next to you.
Turn around
Look me in the eyes
Say you can’t make it on your own.

Unwelcome Feeling

sometimes you can't help it
the feeling washes over you,
just as unwelcome as the last time
it waits there-inside you
for the perfect time
the perfect time- when you're not looking
it plays unfair
kicking you in the gut when you're already down
you'll learn to live with it
in time.
everything has it's time.
and you wait for this time to be over.
it gives in.
if only for a moment
letting you live again.
until the next time
and the time after that
until it swallows you whole
until you've got nothing left to give.

Whispers

I heard you last night
when you thought I was asleep
And let me tell you,
I love you never sounded so sweet.
Woke up again
To find it was merely a dream
A wish, a hope
From somewhere inside of me

Orchestrated Insanity

Kiss me good bye cause-
I don't think we'll both make it out alive
So This is the last you'll hear of me
Don't try to stop me when I pack up and leave
Sure, it was fun while it lasted
But now we've reached our bitter end
And we must go our separate ways
I refuse to become one of those sad clichés
at first it was laced fingers
and midnight kisses
and being together forever
and saying i love you every five minutes
But now that's all over
When tomorrow comes the only thing
left of me will be the memories
I'll be on my way, trying to be free;
to survive life through orchestrated insanity.

Lost

Lost in my soul
Lost in this dark abyss of confusion
lost in the complicated lives we lead
lost in loneliness, suffering, and sorrow
will i find the light?
in this never ending night?
is there one to find?
or is my search forever endless
just as the rising sun is
but a dream

Ashes and Dust

Fire burns in the night
Ignited by hatred and lies
Kept alive by the blackened
Souls wandering the earth
Watch as the white blue flames
Lick the heartless shadows
All consuming
Until naught is left but
That which it came
Ashes and dust
The rain comes now
The omnipresent clouds
Drifting through
Bringing unshed tears of
The blackened souls
Washing away
Ashes and dust